Okay, I finally worked myself to the limit

I've always been a perfectionist in everything but especially when it comes to work. The day I get everything down perfect, I will be happy. The morning I wake up when my work is perfect and everything's going as it should be, I will be happy. The day I master everything that's required of me, I shall be ecstatic! However that's not the way life goes does it? No sir...far from it. There always seem to be obsbacles in the way. If it's not one thing, it's another and I guess this is kind of a law of life in general. I swear, every month I go through the same thing. When one thing goes right, two things go wrong. Every single month! However I know that everything has a reason and what doesn't kill makes me stronger.

This time, I caught a bug...yes I caught a cold, goddamn it! And I don't like it one bit!!! It's the end of the month for me. I gave up going to Nation! I worked hard and stayed up all night! No matter what, I was deterimined to do what I have to do NOW! Then all of a sudden what's this? In the middle of work, I start to feel cold and my body starts to ache all over. Fuck fuck and double fuck!!! If only my body can keep up with me and if only I didn't need sleep, things would be fine and dandy!

Obviously, this cold is making me very unpleasant. Maybe I can will this cold to go away! Or maybe...just maybe, God will give me a break and make it go away by tomorrow morning! Yeah, think positive. Oh, positive thinking might work! Right! That works all the time right?

Oh, just fuck it! I need to get some rest!

A very busy week

The weekend started out with mostly rain and continued all the way until today. This morning I woke up to a beautiful morning with clear blue skies. I must say that I had a difficult time sleeping last night. I had so many things on my mind that my mind just wouldn't shut down. My body was physically tired, but my mind was 100% alert and excited. Have to learn how to control this or else I will have insomnia again.

It's been a busy and productive week for me. Working on my business, making sure I fit a workout or two in between and attending social events as not to alienate my friends. Oh, did I forget my partner? Oops, almost forgot about him. We've both been so busy doing different things I sometimes forget he's even here. Hmmm....that's not such a good thing.

It's quite obvious that I have nothing meaningful to write about so I will just stop babbling right now.

Another good day

Today was a wonderful day. The weather was fine and work went well.

I met a friend that I haven't seen in a long time. Just as I remembered, the conversation was comfortable and enjoyable. I'm glad we met today.

I went to the gym to take the POWER RUSH class with a friend. No panic attacks today. In fact, I felt great after the work out.

At 6pm, I had to meet 3 team members in my group with AGEL. The meeting was helf at Osaki and my upline, David, came to support us. He's a fantastic guy and we have the opportunity to become successful because of him. He is such a success in his field and I have a lot to learn from him. My group and I went home feeling fired up and ready for another day.

Teamwork makes the dream work! That's my motto for the day!

PIcture gallery updates

1999
Euro 2000
2000
2001
past pics
2002
Thailand 2004

Great week

What a great week it's been! After a lot of grey and gloomy rain, this past week was filled with sunshine and warmth. I finally got myself to the gym and felt great about it. I had no panic attacks whatsoever and lost all the weight that I gained during my Osaka trip. That's right, I gained exactly 3 kilos after that week-long trip. So I started taking my FIT twice a day and lost it all! I made a new friend this week as well. He's a much older guy but he's sincere and sweet and it's always good to be able to learn from someone older and wiser. I can use a different perspective now and then.

Yesterday my partner and I found this great Italian restaurant near our place. It's run by this lesbian chef. At first, I thought she was a man but when she spoke and I looked at her more closely, I realized she was a woman. She didn't talk much and wasn't personable but I made an effort to tell her how delicious her pasta was and asked her what the sauce was made from. I mean it really was that good! After that she was all smiles and had the cutest smile I've seen in a long time...this coming from a gay guy is a big deal. Anyway, I'll probably visit her again sometime next week. I don't know what it is about her, but her smile was very attractive and it makes me want to see her again...not to mention try out her other culinary creations.

Change is Good

It's almost time for Nation and I'm NOT going to be there! I was so looking forward to going. But I made up my mind a few months ago that I have other priorities right now...mainly working with my distributors so I can help them succeed in their businesses. I made a committment to myself and to my team and you know what? I'm actually feeling good about myself already! In fact, if I go to Phuket, I would probably be thinking about my business all the time and that's not good. I think I made a good decision.

I feel like I've come to a turning point in my life. For the past 3 years I feel as if I was on a long break. I was taking it easy and enjoying life as it was. Simple and easy. After three years, I feel it's time to move on to a new chapter in my life. I'm 40 years old and I realize there's more to life than parties. Mind you, I still love parties...I mean what is life without parties? But I started thinking about things like responsibilities, taking care of other people like family, making sure the people I care for are looked after and other adult stuff like that. Yeah, I know, it sure doesn't sound like me...but it is. It's always been a part of me. I just needed a break. A three year break. The time has come...the turning point in my life...the time to change my future in a big way!

Picture gallery

I had a bunch of pictures lying around the house. Decided to put them all into a box. Got them sorted out and decided to put some in my blog. Just got done with the year 2002. Wow, I sure have a lot of pics to put up!

A restful weekend

Yesterday my partner and I went to get a nice cup of coffee and a slice of cinnamon toast at our favorite coffee place near our apartment. I love Starbucks, but this place is very old-fashioned...the interior looks retro and the music is classical. Most of the customers are old but for some reason, I love the place. The coffee is made to order so you do have to wait while they grind the beans and make your coffee. The cinnamon toast is another marvelous concoction. They slather real butter mixed with cinnamon and a large sprinkling of rock sugar on a thick slab of white bread and toast it in the oven, resulting in a hot and soft interior with a crispy crust on the top. It's a wonderful way to start the day.

At 9pm, my friends came over for some wine. Just a small gathering of friends who live close by. They ended up staying until 6am as always, and I finally got to bed around 7am. I woke up at 1pm. My partner wanted to have brunch so we went to a wonderful Italian trattoria near our place(yes we have a lot of neat places in our neighborhood). Today's menu was a pizza with pumpkin soup and a cup of espresso. We always seem to have great conversation there...maybe it's the relaxing atmosphere...maybe it's the good bread...whatever it is, a visit to the trattoria does wonders for our relationship.

A great a restful beginning to our 3-day weekend.

MIchael's trip

My best friend Michael came to visit me 2 weeks ago. Today is his last day and it sure feels like we've been partying hard for 2 weeks. I feel kind of worn out and have to admit, I've been slacking off work since he's been here. I've also haven't been able to check my emails as often as I should. Lost of catching up to do.

Let's see what we have done these past 2 weeks...

We went to Osaka and Kyoto for 5 days via overnight bus.
We went out on the weekends and stayed out until morning.
Visited Tokyo Disney Sea...again!
Saw the Madonna concert twice!
Hardly slept at all!

Tonight he wants to go out again to the bars and wants me to go with him. So I'm here trying to recuperate and catch up with work so I can make it tonight.

I finally got to post some new pictures on my blog. Lots of them actually...all from the past. Future pictures will have to wait.

I feel like I'm coming down with a cold. Not a bad one. Have to take a double dose of AGEL. In fact, I haven't had a major cold in years if I think about it.