Wow, what a year it's been

This year was an interesting year for me and it felt like a wild roller coaster ride all the way. The year started out serene and calm but it didn't last for long. Trying to juggle different projects at the same time along with trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life (really at your age?) while trying to keep gratitude lists, a workout schedule and worrying about aging has not been an easy task. Along the way, certain things took priority while other equally important things had to take a back seat. I also went through quite a lot of ups and downs with my emotions as well as mentally and I'm beginning to realize that maybe I've always been like this throughout my life. 

Now if what I just wrote is true, it's kind of disturbing to know that because it probably means I have big issues to deal with. We're already at the end of October and as Halloween passes us by, I am once again trying to figure out if I'm happy. I've always kept this part of cyberspace as real as I can and because it's been a good therapeutic tool for me personally, I'm going to keep it that way. I don't know why I'm starting to fear certain things in life and that just really sucks. Why am I letting these things get to me at this point in my life? 

So from this day forward and at least until the end of this year, I'll try and post something here on a daily basis thinking that at the least, it'll help with keeping me sane. 

Not everything was so bad this year. I started writing for squidoo which has been a good overall experience for me so far. It's helped me expand my interests as well as getting me closer to a dream I have had for the longest time. I've been able to stop taking so much meds for dealing with my panic disorder. I have a good sex life and that's always a good thing right. My dog is alive and I love him to pieces. I've also met many good people through my affiliation with squidoo and I'm grateful for that.