So this week I've been kind of taking it easy and trying to find balance in my life again. I've had a rediculously busy schedule during the summer and now I feel I have time to take a breather. For a week after my busy months, I had really bad insomnia and could not get myself to sleep at night. No matter how tired I was, I felt like there was an electrical current running through my body all day. Even when I was in bed, my brain refused to shut down. It was really frustrating and I decided to go and buy myself some serious herbal tea to calm my nerves. The cheap stuff just wasn't doing it and I splurged on some pricey herbal remedies. They were just herb tea, but the kind where they actually measure these organic dried herbs for you and sell it to you by weight. Well, for approximately 30 servings of tea, it came out to around 5000 yen so it ain't cheap. However the tea somehow seems to be working and after a cup or two, I start to feel relaxed and calm. In fact, I can't drink it during work hours because I feel like I'll fall asleep. Anyway, glad I got the tea.

Approximately half my life, I've been my own boss...either as a business owner or a freelance something or other. It's unstable and insecure but at the same time, nothing in the world today is 100% secure these days. I also thrive on challenge and no matter what the outcome, I prefer to take full responsibility of my work. It's just the way I've always been.

One aspect that you have to deal with when running your own business is dealing with other people. It could be a business partner, a customer or a fellow business owner,...hell it could be anybody. One thing I found over and over again in my experience is that the people you work with can make your day or ruin your day. Today was one of those days where my day was ruined. Ok, ruin is not exactly the word I'd use because honestly speaking, I've had experiences like this and it was just another one. It's just that this was a person who I had very big respect for. I know that a lot of people don't like him but I always stood up for him and besides I know he's a bit nuts. However he truly disappointed me today with something he said. You know what though? It's only a big deal if I believe it is. Halfway through writing on my blog, I already start to feel calmer. Hmm...could this mean that I'm handling stress better? I believe so. It's almost weird how little this is affecting me. The relationship with him will change and it means changes to my work but I will deal with it and that's the way it is.

Ok, I just needed to vent. thanks. :)