Xmas Tree

I finally got my Xmas tree up all decorated for the season last week. Yes it's time for my favorite season of the year! Why do I love the holiday season so much you ask? To sum up my feelings, it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Strange I know but it just does. This year though, I have to admit that I'm enjoying it a lot different than previous years. I'm most likely not going to my friend's Christmas parties and I'm probably not going to have a party of any kind. Well, I think I might invite a few friends over that I consider to be family and make it a small and intimate affair. My Bell's Palsy still curses me with its unrelentlessness and I'm not confident enough to meet anyone else for yet. I have to decide soon though if I'm going to have any kind of party for myself.

My Christmas tree this year is decorated in purples and silvers this year. It's quite nice actually. My boyfriend and I wanted to do something more "mature" and "modern" this year with our decor. I can't say that it's all that modern, but at least it doesn't traditional. Today I'm going out to buy a pair of poinsettias to go with the tree.

I just got over a really bad cold and I'm still not fully recovered. I mean how many ailments can I get one after the other! I don't know how much more my body can handle all this! My diarrhea wouldn't stop for days and I felt drained and so out of it for a while there. Today I feel much better and hopefully my diarrhea has stopped. At least my appetite has returned.

Next week I really need to get a haircut. My hair is the longest it's been in a while. I haven't cut my hair for over 2 months now. Yeah it's getting out of control but with the way I feel right now, it kind of suits me I think. I like this disheveled look because that's the way I feel. With my hair cut and perfectly styled, it just doesn't feel right with my Bells Palsy and my ailments. hehe

My days are kind of lonely and I know it's all my fault. I've isolated myself from any kind of social life. But that's ok with me for now. Maybe I've had too much of a social life in the years past. Besides my friends will forgive me and hopefully will still love me after all this.

I miss my friends. I miss my life. I miss my face.

Oh, did I say I want to have a Christmas Party in Second Life? Everybody's invited!!! The only requirement is to JOIN second life and to become a FREE member!!! I mean it's FREE for god's sake! However I would recommend getting a new shape, skin, hair and clothes for the party, which are NOT free but can be had for a very little amount. If you don't know what I'm talking about, just look for me IN WORLD. By the way, my Second Life avatar name is Shinichi Mathy. Yeah I look perfect in SECOND LIFE!!! Yeah right!