Filled with so much gratitude.

Today I am filled with so much gratitude. I am overflowing with joy, happiness and gratefulness that I words aren't enough. So many things have changed in the past year and although at first I didn't realize it, they were changing towards a better direction. It's funny how you sometimes don't realize that what initially seems like a negative situation, turns out to be a blessing in disguise. It's funny how life works isn't it?

Earlier last year, I was hoping to extend my designs into the real world. I was working towards that and had even made a few contacts. Yet it didn't quite feel right. I wasn't sure why because it all sounded exciting, but it just didn't seem to click with me. Something inside didn't agree with the plans. Still, I ignored my feelings and continued to work hard at my designs. Nothing seemed to go right. Sales were stagnant and I found myself dreading the work. Something I enjoyed doing for the past few years, I suddenly lost the passion for it. Still, I didn't want to be a quitter and besides, there was nothing else for me to do.

One day, I stumbled upon a website called Squidoo. It was a writing platform that allowed you to create one-page articles or what they call "lenses". I thought that was cool and it looked like , with a few exceptions, you could write about anything you wanted. So I wrote my first lens. Then my second. Soon, I had a collection of lenses.

The troubling thing was I started to notice a shift inside of me. It scared me because the reality was, I was no longer interested in designing fashion for a virtual world. It no longer interested me and although I kept doing it, my passion started to wane. On the other hand, I lost track of time writing lenses about my passions, hopes and dreams. Something inside of me was unleashed and I suddenly felt that I stumbled upon something that was important.

Fast forward to today. I have complete writing 88 lenses for Squidoo. The amazing part of the whole process is the fact that people actually liked what I wrote. Dozens of people started to encourage me to live my life the way I wanted to, what my soul was telling me to do.

After I came back from a two-week visit to Hawaii to visit my family, my transformation was complete. My sister told me in not so many words, that I was wasting my time. My mother was surprisingly, a bit more understanding. Having been more than a little hurt by my sister's words, I finally realized that it was my life. The choice belonged to me and what mattered the most was living my life on my own terms.

So I stand here today, filled with gratitude to everyone who has touched my life in some way. Whether family members, friends or contacts on the internet, no matter how small or large, you have affected my life in a positive way. I don't believe in coincidences. I believe that everything has a purpose and a reason. I finally get it. Thank you!

My one big change in 2013

2013 was a very interesting year for me and a challenging one at that. One of the biggest changes that took place in my life was that I started to write again. More precisely, I started to write on a platform called Squidoo. You can read about my experience here.

http://www.squidoo.com/how-squidoo-has-changed-my-life

I hope to blog more and on a regular basis. I promise! Happy 2014 to everyone out there!