Brand New Year

So we have entered the year 2011 and I'm just starting to look back at what 2010 was all about for me. 2010 was definitely a year with a lot of ups and downs and it wasn't easy to keep things in perspective. I think 2011 was a year where I lost focus on what's important for me due to me being so damn busy all the time. I worked my butt off with my virtual business and it definitely has paid off. I also was kept with a whole bunch of ailments including my panic attacks, strange and constant headaches as well as my Bell's Palsy coming back to taunt me. I went to Singapore to meet up with some virtual friends and they've become very real friends to me. I've also gone through some minor depression but I never let it beat me in the end. So many ups and downs but I guess that's life.

In the end though, I think I needed the final blow of Bell's Palsy to help me slow down and put things back into perspective. In 2010, I forgot to be thankful for the small things in life. I didn't appreciate the fact that I was alive and able to take walks with my dog. I was too busy to take notice of the things and I took them for granted. The Bell's Palsy forced me to slow down and refocus.

In December, I was at first depressed. During this month, not only did my bells palsy not improve much, but my cousin's dog died, my good friend's cat died and I heard that one of my friend's father was killed. Another good friend of mine is very ill and another ended a very long relationship. I felt better around Christmas week, then started to feel happier as the year came to an end. I cleaned my apartment from top to bottom and threw away all unneccessary items. I started to chew my food more slowly savoring each mouthful. I took the time to take daily walks with my dog or to take a bike ride to the bookstore. I called my mother just to talk. I called my friend to listen to him cry about his breakup. I watched Harper's Island back to back and finished watching all episodes in one sitting! December was a good way to end the year.

Today, I did my laundry and had a good lunch. I also heard that my PR manager's nephew got into a terrible car accident. i had no words for her except sorry and I felt for her. She has been with me for almost three years and I cried as she told me about this tragery. However even as I was taking all this sadness in, I felt lucky that I could share in her sadness. I am grateful that I had the opportunity to be sad with her because she has become my dear friend.

So looking back at the year, 2010 was challenging at least for me. It was also filled with surprises and little spots of fun, excitement and happiness. I am looking at this year as a new opportunity to start with a new attitude. This year I promise myself to work on myself. To become a better human being and to treat each day of my life as my last. I am excited about this year and what's to come. I will savor each day 100%.  I give thanks for everyone that's touched me in one way or another. I give thanks to life itself. Thank you.

Year 2011, here I come!!!